Outsider (アウトサイダー)

[nebulancer]

English translation:

Believe me – I don’t understand

My heart – and my brain

 

Idealism of feeling attachment welling up

In the end, it’s nothing but a shackle that eventually steals my freedom

I want to melt away a future like that

It’s already set in stone, a future like that

 

Used for efficiency, not having any time

Without any evidence, the truth’s a black hole

 

Believe me – I don’t understand

I want to meet – I don’t want to meet

It’s precious – I don’t need it

My heart – and my brain

Are being shaken up quietly

By the thing I feel between me and others...

“Why?”

 

Friendship’s sometimes just so painful

That in the end, being alone always provides me happiness

I want to protect this creature

I ended up raising this creature

 

I want to embrace it with a tolerant diagnosis

Hugging it tight for the time it had been forgotten...

 

Me’s – a crowd

Pushing them close – I don’t want to meet

Fake – and real

Create my entire life

Leave me alone – don’t go, please

The gears in my chest just can’t fit together...

“Why?”

 

I’m two sides of one coin, unable to handle it all

An outsider

 

Believe me – I don’t understand

I want to meet – I don’t want to meet

It’s precious – I don’t need it

My heart – and my brain

Are being shaken up quietly

By the thing I feel between me and others...

“Why?”

Romaji:

 

shinjite wakaranai

kokoro to kono nounai

 

aichaku no waita seishinron nante

kekkyoku jiyuu wo ubau ashikase

tokashite agetai sono future

korikatamatta sono future

 

yuukou ni tsukatte jikan ga nai no

konkyo no nai shinjitsu no burakkuhooru

 

shinjite wakaranai

aitai aitakunai

taisetsu iranai

kokoro to kono nounai

yusaburu shizuka ni

jibun no naka no tanin to

“Why?”

 

yuujou toka tama ni kurushikutte

kekkyoku hitori ga itsumo shiawase

mamotteagetai kono creature

sodatte shimatta kono creature

 

kandai na shinsatsu de dakishimetai yo

wasurerareta saigetsu wo gyutto...

 

kodoku ga oozei

oshiyoseru aitakunai

nisemono to honmono ga

tsukuridasu isshougai

hottoite ikanaide

kamiawanai mune no haguruma

“Why?”

 

hyouri ittai kakaekirenai

autosaidaa

 

shinjite wakaranai

aitai aitakunai

taisetsu iranai

kokoro to kono nounai

yusaburu shizuka ni

jibun no naka no tanin to

“Why?”

Kanji:

 

信じて　わからない

心と　この脳内

 

愛着の湧いた精神論なんて

結局自由を奪う　足かせ

溶かしてあげたい　そのfuture

凝り固まった　そのfuture

 

有効に使って　時間が無いの

根拠の無い　真実のブラックホール

 

信じて　わからない

会いたい　会いたくない

大切　要らない

心と　この脳内

揺さぶる　静かに

自分の中の他人と

「Why?」

 

友情とかたまに苦しくって

結局一人がいつも幸せ

守ってあげたい　このcreature

育ってしまった　このcreature

 

寛大な診察で抱きしめたいよ

忘れられた歳月をぎゅっと...

 

孤独が　大勢

押し寄せる　会いたくない

ニセモノと　ホンモノが

造り出す　一生涯

ほっといて　行かないで

噛み合わない胸の歯車

「Why?」

 

表裏一体　抱えきれない

アウトサイダー

 

信じて　わからない

会いたい　会いたくない

大切　要らない

心と　この脳内

揺さぶる　静かに

自分の中の他人と

「Why?」